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Digging up old works stored in my Documents. There is no Chapter 1 with me as the story was a joined effort and it was my role to write up a Chapter 7. Can't recover the other chapters because I don't remember where this was done. Oh wells. “911, what’s your emergency?” “I think- I think my mom needs help,” I said into...
I may not have all the answers with me. I may not be 100% okay. In fact, who is ever 100% okay? I do, however, have the motivation to look forward. The courage to face what comes next. The confidence that I made the right choices even if they seem wrong at some moment. I am discovering, I am taking risks, I am...
I read today what I should have read weeks ago. I didn't notice until today, that a long note was left and it was left unread. All is forgiven, forgotten, but cherished and appreciated. ~Joanna ...
On March 31st this year, I promised myself that I would return smiles to my face. After a long, hard, struggle, the genuine smile is back. I did not do it alone, of course. There were friends and concerned acquaintances. However, at the core, real peace is found only by one- me. There were heartbreaks along the way, but I had gone through...
23! No longer having the age with good looking even numbers. Compared to the previous year, I feel happier, with a striving to continue growing for the better. But there's a long, long road ahead of me... and I think I'm ready to face it. It has been great :) ~Joanna ...
When dealing with mess, I tend to look toward the person who can deal it all away. Now that I am trying to learn how to be independent and now that the mess that I have is fully under my responsibility, I need to learn how to deal with it. Take a broom, sweep it away. Take a mop, mop it clean. Man,...
Sitting at the ledge, she let her legs dangle and swing. Way below were illuminating lights from passing motorists and cars. The night brought a gentle, cooling breeze and it lightly swept her hair backwards. Her lips curved and her eyes closed, depicting the serenity she felt. This was it. This is what life have come to and she had finally reached the...
Google translated? Boat harbor bursts of distant flute I have been wandering to pick up by you Today, looking at the reflection window glass I have a strange but familiar I can Smile a little more Sing a little more Feel a little more All because of you Is happy to say good day to day practice Laugh a little more practice Love...
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thoughts,
Frustration
When starting to realise the fact that there is that thought every day, no matter how small.... Annoying. Where is the delete button in real life? ~Joanna ...
I don't know where this came from, but I thought it was a good read. The phone rang. She was sobbing badly on the other end of the line.“I’m going over,” I told her and hung up before she could protest.1am. It was going to be a long night ahead..She was still crying when she opened the door. She looked so broken, so vulnerable....
This awesome YouTuber made a modern adaptation of Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice in video logs. Pride and Prejudice is one of my favourite books to read. I find the storytelling really interesting and well made- with enough humour and background story. The first episode is below: For more episodes, find them here. ~Joanna ...
Sometimes, there are no words to what I want to say. There are just feelings; one big lump sum of feelings that are interwoven with millions, perhaps zillions of words. Still, with all the words, nothing can describe what goes on in those feelings in a split second. In one second, there are an equivalent of a bucket of words, overflowing, to be...
Another song stuck in my head. 如果說了太多 請你別再閃躲那尷尬的笑容 會讓我更難過就算只是朋友 你能不能夠直話直說 讓我懂都怪你的灑脫 溫暖了我胸口但曖昧很沈重 讓親暱成了折磨不要看著我 天真的說現在的你是多麼脆弱這樣諷刺 求救 原來最痛我不敢哭 因為我不想認輸你的心為她守護 我比誰都清楚我不敢哭 或許也是種認輸愛你卻說不出 就當作祝福如果愛是自由 為何無法回收我在你的左右 也不過是個棘手不要看著我 天真的說現在的你是多麼脆弱這樣諷刺 求救 原來最痛我不敢哭 因為我不想認輸你的心為她守護 我比誰都清楚我不敢哭 或許也是種認輸愛你卻說不出 就當作祝福 oh oh~我不敢哭 因為我不想認輸你的心為她守護 我比誰都清楚我不敢哭 或許也是種認輸愛你卻說不出 就當作祝福 ~Joanna ...
Just for fun, I ran through Ji Mo Ji Mo Jiu Hao lyrics into Google translate and... I can't understand anything. It's so far from what the lyrics are trying to say. Pretty amusing. ~Joanna ...
I promise that someday I’ll return this face a bunch of smiles... Wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao zhe shi hou shei dou bie lai an wei yong baoJiu rang wo yi ge ren qu tong dao shou bu liao xiang dao kuai feng diaoSi bu liao jiu hai hao Wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao ni zhen de bu yong...
It has been a filled up weekend, which I have never really expected. It was good. I should list down the things that I have learned in these two days. Make sure to never forget it for a little bit of wisdom and knowledge will not hurt. Saturday Going out a lot and having tons of activities throughout the week... will take a...
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The What Ifs
What if I've never did that, say that or think that? What if you never do this, say this, or think this way? So many what if's in my head. What if, what if, what if! Driving me nuts. Sometimes I wish I could just say out all that's going on in my mind. The truth is you wouldn't want to hear it...
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Penang 2013
It has been a tiring week. Saturday to Monday, Penang. At first I was so hesitant to go. I thought I wouldn't enjoy it due to some reasons. But it turns out better than expected. I'm really thankful to have met this friend. At the end of the trip, I've found my answers to a few of my questions that were swimming around...
Sometimes I feel like I'm pushing myself lately. I pushed some thoughts out of my head. I pushed my feelings aside. I went for an "interview" I didn't really want to go to today and I pushed the uneasiness away. The "interview" felt so weird. The moment it started, a camera pointed at me and I could only give an awkward smile. If...
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Trouble
I feel like I'm setting myself up for trouble. At first it felt like a normal thing to do, diving into my easily built idealism. But when I'm back on the ground, I remember that there are other factors I've pushed to the back of my mind. Panicking softly in my mental state. As said, I acted without thinking. What am I doing?...
~Joanna ...
Lesson learnt very early on before this conclusion is even written down. When you think you are helping someone, someone would not appreciate it because of the way you do things. When you think honesty is the best policy, even to someone close, they'd think you're just being mean and not understanding. No matter how hard you try to be not only a...
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Silence
In this silence I sit. In this silence I wonder. In this silence I grasp at the thing called Peace. It's quite hard to find peace nowadays, especially when thr Brain and the Heart won't stop screaming at each other. But here, under this tree, in the most unexpected places, there is peace. And I sit in the silence, inwardly smiling to myself....
"Yes I know, I can be wrong Maybe you're too headstrong" "I need to love..." ~Joanna ...
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thoughts,
Life Control
Life. No matter how much we try to control it, steer it and veer it, you just cannot. Ideally, we would want life to be in a linear fashion. This should happen, and next this one, and the next that one... But sometimes life just goes round in circles. And the moment you thought you are getting somewhere, you find out you are...
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thoughts,
On Writing
When I set my pen on paper, or my fingers to the computer keyboard, I feel free. Free to express, free to create. It is my world, a world where I can control as much as I like, run free as much as I like. But I'm not like that in real life. My courage, my thousand and one words comes only when...
Constrained, the Self pulls itself back from where the Heart wants to be. Information from the Brain has told the Mind to lock up the Heart before damage could be done. It was locked, pacing and anticipating its release. Day by day, its hope slowly diminish and its gait becomes of a low pace. Soon, out of luck, an urgent matter. Either it...
I should have already known it. It's just trouble waiting to happen. How could I just have let it happen? Not like you would look at it again. I should have already known it. It's just trouble waiting to happen. How could I just have let it happen? Not like you would look at it again. ...
Inside a person there is a Mind to help the body move and make decisions. The Mind has two assistants reporting to it. First, there is the Brain; to rationalize and make sure that the decisions are the right, logical ones. Second, there is the Heart so that whatever hard, logical thinking and conclusion the brain makes, it is balanced out with the...
Things I should do more in the coming new year: Be not afraid of wearing more bright coloured clothings. Polka dots, sequins and colours that are almost neon are a must! Knowledge, knowledge, knowledge in both spiritual and the world. I shall not have a stunted mental growth. Action, action, action. Knowledge is useless if it lies there in the brain without anything...
