Sometimes silence is all you need.

It's quiet, it's blank, there's nothing to distract you, nothing to disturb you. No pain, no tears, no drama... just a blank sheet of paper. And I want that blank sheet of paper to stay like that for a while.

I'm so sick of having nice, blank papers splashed with ink. For now, I just want total and utter silence. Just stone for a while.

Blank.

Do you have your own inspirations in life? Something or someone that teaches you how to live? If you don't, think of all the people in your life. Your enemies, your loved ones, your dog -anyone. Had they given you values or an idea in life? For me, currently at this moment, my inspirations come from God and three men.

My first inspiration, comes from God because he has taught me how to live even through the hardest times. There were many a time when I was circling endlessly in darkness, hitting myself on things because I couldn't see and thought that maybe if I ended my life, every pain, every tear drop, every scar collected and every problem would just disappear. But at that moment when I thought of being extinct, I thought of God. I couldn't just waste my life away like that and besides, the problems I faced, others have faced to. So I pushed those thoughts aside, got up and searched for a light. And I found it eventually. He has taught me that if I can survive one problem, I could survive another.

My second inspiration, came from one of the men in my life -my father. He has taught me pushed me to aim higher in life and even though you don't get it, at least you're somewhere. When he was around he had always pushed me to be better, do better than what I'm doing. But he has never put much pressure on me and that was good. He has shown me and the rest of the world that even though you're someone who started the low point, you will be somewhere near the top if you try hard enough and is persistent.

Another man whom has given me my third inspiration is my brother. He taught me that putting your whole effort and heart in doing something will be satisfactory and guilt free. Even though you do not get the result you were looking for, at least you had tried your best into completing what you should and could look back without guilt of not trying harder.

Last but not least, another inspiration of life comes from Eng Yew. He has taught me, in love, how to be patient and that most of the time actions could really mean more than words. We had and have many rough patches but through all those, he has taught me how to grow.

With that being said, I am grateful for the four inspirations in my life. They had given me colour in life and shown me that impossible could become possible. Of course, these aren't the only ones. There are many others, but these, at the moment as well as whether indirectly or directly, shown me the meaning in life. Although one of the men isn't here anymore, he and his valuable teachings will forever be in my mind and heart.